its now thursday

and i feel like i have gotten nothing that i need to do done, i have class in a few hours and there will most likely be a small tes, wait i take that back there will be a test. there is still so much to do and not enough time to do it in, and of course i find myself with the same problem as normal, massive ammounts of stress lots to do and little motovation, i am however trying. on the top of my worries is my BIO class. the final is this friday and i have been studying constantly for the last few weeks
i find that i am starting to slowly but surely understnad some of the stuff that i have to know, but that dosent make it any better, i know what is going on in class but that dosent mean that i will know what is going on when it comes time to actualy take the test. i find it stupid that my whole years has coem down to this one test in that class, i have to say that i am slightly pissed off at the least, and annoyed at the best. dont even get me started on the rest of the things that i have to do between now and wendsday
i know i can do it
that does not mean i am not going nuts over it
peace
td

This weekend

Has been of note.
on friday my friend Jackie called me and said that she was heading up to visit, Jackie lives on cape cod which is about five hours away, i had given up hope of even seeing her this year due to many problems that have popped up. so it was very good to have her come up for a little while. Yesterday, we went kyacking, and that was a lot of fun Leslie, Amanda, Jackie and i all went down to unity pond, and for those of you who have never seen Unity pond, it is very large, and in fact i think that it would be fairly safe to call it a lake, it takes up a large part of Unity, as well as the next town over, the thing much be close to a thousand acares.
there was a nice wind that was wipping around town so going out on th epond was a but hair raising with the waves that were out there but it was still a lot of fun, we went back in to the swamp in town and you can go all over the place becuase it is flooded from all of the snow melt that we have gotten since spring has been upon us
we all got soaked but it was worth it, from there we headed out to red robin for dinner, the food was great but sadly we could not finish all of it since they serv such large quantities, and of course i frogo to put what was left in the freezer when we got back so it was a little funk by the time we wanted it this after noon

on another note leslie and i took her car in to get her brakes looked at and to see why it is over heating, they said that the brakes are fine despite the fact that they are not, and the fixed the other problems, in theory. it cost a pretty penny so i really hope that her car is good now. today is saturday, and jackie needs to go home some time today becuase she has to be back early tomorrow morning, im not sure when she will be going back because she has spent most of her time up here visiting another friend, not sure how i feel about that one...
well its getting late and i think i wnt to go for another ride so i guess i should go and do that
td

Its amazing outside

And im stuck indoors. as i type my state and local goverment teacher is talking away, it really is a shame that he chose to teach such a boring class, keith is a cool guy but this class really blows.
i managed to get some thigns done today that i have needed to do for a while now, i took my car into the shop and i was intheory goign to replace a knock sensor. well i got a call saying that there was no need to do that bcause the knock sensor is fine. i theory there is somehting wrong with the population sensor that is wrong with the car? what ever i dont know.

very much looking forward to getting out this weekend and doing a litle bit of caming down by the ocean, i think it is going to be a blast the weather should be great who know i might even be forced to go swiming, ok so its not goin to be that warm.

keith is still going on and on and class is almost over, it hink the whole class is holding its breath so we can get out of here and go play in the maine sunshine. speaking of sunshine camping and being outside, i just realized last night that i really need to get my self together because before i know it my NOLS course is goign to be upon me, i have to say i am very muc looking forward to to it. but now i need to go gear shopping. that should be fairly exciting, everyone likes t get new gear. well this class is officaly over and he is still talking so intill next time
peace

Can you say lack of motovation?

I can
i have two major papers left of the year and i dont want to do either one of them at the moment i have to say school bores me, but i guess we all have those moments. i spent a good part of today trying people to come and join the rescue squad in town, i really didn't know that this was goign to be up to me in till a short time ago, so in a last ditch effort my buddy chris and i put some stuff and got a bit of a program.
apperntly he schoo has been planing a wellness fair for sometime now, so this was our plan, go in set up a sweet table and try like hell to get people to join our ranks, well thos worked fine and dandy intoll we had to go and do a fire stand by. which by the way was a major cluster. no one really knew what was going on so there was people all over the place

so here i find my self back in my room trying to do one of these papers
guess what?
not happening

on a lighter not i just had some amazing tea, and i might be forced to have another cup
i just turned around and got a good look at the back of my room, i realized that all of my camping stuff is still there for the other weekend, really need to clean this is starting to get out of control

today was crazy
at least the weather was nice
intill next time
tim

Do you know what burn out is?

Have you ever felt that you cant move? All you want to do is sleep and nothing really matters becuase your so tired all of the time? welcome to my life. i find my self facing less then a month of school left, and i also find my burned out. i dont know if i have any more to give sometimes, but then the radio goes off, and i some how get my self out of bed and go on another call, this is the life of an emt.

on a lighter note today was amazing, the weather was perfect and it is supposed to keep being nice like it has been for the last few days, as of right now leslie and i have plans to go camping for half og the weekend, it should be nice as long as the weather holds. I think i can say with out much doubt that we are both ready for a little bit of a break, ready for a little time away fomr campus. I am not going to lie it will be nice to turn off the radio for a while and get some peace. right now it is looking like we are going to head to the coast and camp down by Aciaida (Sp) it should be very nice.

today we had the student goverment elections, and i have to say i am happy with the way things turned out, Rachel Mestas won the president, which is good consindering that the other guy running is a bit of an ass who is fairly closed minded.
i find it to be getting late and tomorrow is my early class so i guess i should be heading for bed
(thanks to tybor for the blog idea )
td